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I have learned a lot about myself, life and love over the past 10 months, but one of the most important things I have learned is this: Home is where your heart is (I know, very cliché).

I have experienced homesickness, an ache deep within the pit of my stomach, randomly over the past months. Often times it is brought on by a familiar smell, food, scenic area or phone call and sometime for no reason at all. The ache will eventually begin to subside but never fully disappear…very annoying.

Removing yourself from people or places brings on a sudden realization of how much of a hold they have over you, it’s like “Oh man, I must actually like this place.” You will begin to yern for the places that once seemed mundane, boring and all too familiar, for everyday faces and everyday places.

Eight months into my travels my mom and my aunt came to visit me while in picturesque Italy. We traveled from Napoli, Roma, Firenze, Venezia and in between, the time melted away. As soon as my mom wrapped her arms around me at that bus stop it was like I had just seen her yesterday, within 24 hours we were having typical mother daughter arguements mixed up between beautiful memories, all was right in the world (except the fact Trump is running for President, nothing about that is right). When the day finally came to say goodbye to my mom I could not stop my tears, I watched her walk through boarder control and disappear into the crowds and I cried, I wanted nothing more than to get on that plane and cross the Atlantic. But in two weeks I would be meeting Meghan and Tawnee, also friends from home, in Ireland so I wiped my tears and got on the metro. But this time the pain did not subside.

I have purchased a ticket “home” to Indiana and soon I will be back to all things familiar and the ache in the pit of my stomach will begin to subside for a little while but I know it will never go away. They say “home is where your heart is” and I have spread my heart all over the world, leaving bits and pieces here and there along the way, my heart will continue to ache for the places I have been and the places I have yet to go.

But I have left the biggest piece of my heart in Indiana and I long to wrap my arms around her (well mostly my family)…and begin planning my next trip “home”.

Forever homesick and full of wanderlust…yes, wanderlust is a real thing.

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6 Comments

  • Marie

    April 27, 2016 at 3:19 pm Reply

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
    I hope you never stop traveling and having the experiences you long for. I can’t wait to see you again…soon! I also can’t wait to put you in your place- yet again- and remind you that “I” am momma…and momma ALWAYS knows best! I also hope you know how very much you’ve been missed.
    And most of all… I’m really glad you could do such a great selfie, holding up the earth- since I failed you miserably on the leaning tower of Pisa AND the Eiffel Tower!! ??? See you SOON!!!

    • amanda beckley

      May 3, 2016 at 3:24 pm Reply

      Lol you are definitely going to have to work on your photography skills when it comes to pics like that lol! …already planning my next trip!

  • Brenda Lash

    April 27, 2016 at 5:52 pm Reply

    Home is definitely where your heart is! I got homesick many, many times while I was in the Army, especially Germany because it was so far away!! The worst I felt was around all the holidays, especially Christmas! I missed my Mom’s hugs the most! I know you’re getting excited about coming home. Back to the familiarity of home and all it offers. But at the same time sad about leaving your “independence” behind. Because for a year you pretty much did what YOU wanted to do. I think that’s what’s going to be the hardest for you when you get back. So happy you got to live a part of your many dreams!!! When you get back you have to come by good ole BSC. You won’t recognize the cafeteria,it’s much bigger. But all the BS is still the same!! BE careful and see you soon!!

    • amanda beckley

      May 3, 2016 at 3:23 pm Reply

      Yes Brenda I will be happy to be home but missing my homes away from home! It is hard being away at times but I always have coming home to look forward to! I plan to go to the Mexican restaurant one day for people who want to see me.

  • Meghan Vester

    April 27, 2016 at 8:43 pm Reply

    Looking forward to seeing you again! You have the traveling fever and it is amazing that you have lived part of your dreams! I get homesick and I only live an hour or hour and a half away from my family. I know it is different being across the world, but what you have done is so good for you! Soon you will be home and have the fever again to explore more. Happy to tell you of a lot of places in Indiana to visit 🙂

    • amanda beckley

      May 3, 2016 at 3:20 pm Reply

      Thanks meg!! Love to visit so places near home with you….and I’ve already got the fever!

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